It's 23.37 AM CET. 23 minutes left until Midnight. Then it's 00.00, and then it turns PM. Time passes. The date changes in this timezone of CET. 16th January 2008.
16th January 2008 I am to deliver 10 pages to pass a subject named theory of science. My assignment is to write about Freud's theory regarding "The Uncanny".
That itself, was interesting, and, additionally - I already did a somewhat similar, however shorter assignment about pretty much the same. The approach was a bit different, that was all. I got a 10 if you are to take it from the Danish grade system. It'd guess it equals an A or a B+, not sure though.
What annoys me is the fact that the past few days. No wait. In all honesty. The past week or so, I've managed to only read a couple of additional theory regarding this, yet I didn't manage to actually start writing the assignment itself. Why? Still beats me. It'd say it's a lack of self-disciplin, simply put. Perhaps I know somewhere inside that I had half of the assignment done already from the previous one - I only had to take it, copy-paste and redo it so it fit better for the actual subject.
Yet I didn't. And now, it's closing in. 23.46 AM. In 14 minutes it's the day where I gotta deliver. And I've written 5 pages out of the 10.
The irony is basically, that this same phenomena - this, sitting late at night, hating yourself for it - has happened every single time for the past 5 or 6 years. Atleast it did when I went to high school, and it did when I started studying at the university.
Perhaps I should take a year off in the military and get pushed around. I like to think that my 7 years in the world of taekwondo taught me a squeeze of disciplin. Maybe it didn't. Maybe I'm lying to myself. Or maybe I'm not and it's a whole different matter.
Maybe I should turn off the internet or uninstall World of Warcraft and other kind of programs that might take my distraction. The feeling of finally being done is equivalent to the one you have after sex. Relief. Pure, straight out relief.
23.49 AM. My browser is still open, and I'll shut up now and whip myself to get back to the exam assigment. It'll all be over sometime tonight. Tomorrow, technically. Good night. |
