Over the past year and a half, I've been noticing a kind of mentality amongst goth kids that equals pure failure.
First off, you are NOT a freak. You just aren't. There's nothing special about you and there's nothing naturally irreconcilable about you. You listen to goth rock and that's about all you need for justification for your precious word of empowerment. You CHOSE to put on the fishnets. People WILL NOT like you for it. Deal with it. On the other hand, I will say that it's a shame that it's like that. That a solid black clad person can so easily manipulate people to be hateful. That is truly what is sad. Not you wearing your darling fishnets.
STOP wallowing in your misery. It's just not a good idea. Growing up, I will say that I wish I knew what I knew now. Everyone has bullshit problems. Not just you.
Goth is not some spiritual decree. Give that silly shit up right now. There's nothing divine about it. God or whatever did not have you be born with torn panty hose grafted to your skin. But I will say that there are studies that show that some people psychologically find more peace of mind in the midst of night or on rainy days. But this doesn't make you a freak. It doesn't isolate you. You are just another INFP type mind or whatever. This is still not a justification to feel sorry for yourself because you were born to like eccentric or different things. It is who you are and there are BILLIONS of people just like you.
When you complain about the preps picking on you in school, you are essentially saying that you wish to be a part of them, but can't. This for the most part, probably isn't real goth behavior and is most deff not punk behavior from what I've seen. You chose to walk around all spooky looking because you like it. If you did it because you knew you'd get less than stellar attention, then you're probably a poseur or an attention whore. Own up to your "debauchery".
Again, stop calling yourself a freak. You are being a fucking conformist and letting people dictate what's in your head by admitting that you are a freak because everyone is calling you that. You are not a freak. This is neither a cool thing or a bad thing. It simply doesn't apply to you. Stop trying to make it glamorous or stop fucking feeling bad about it.
The whole world does not hate you unless you make them hate you. Stop acting like a fucking idiot. NEWSFLASH: There are some goths out there that are pussy magnets and can't help but make friends out of everyone they meet because they are actually that sociable. They do not wallow in self pity because that's not what being goth is about.
Talking about your issues is not discouraged. But learn how to fucking communicate like a human being.
I am done with my rant... move on. |
(not just aimed for the writer)
